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assalamualaikum

tak tahu macam mana nak gambarkan perasaan sekarang bercampur baur.. maybe sbb hormone i think so. ohh maybe sebab nak dekat midterm exam. bukan stress tapi sbb banyak benda yang tak kene n need to be done as soon as possible. allahuu

aritu hantar doktorah banyak songeh research aku yg dh macam thesis ni. punya lah tebal mmg aku amik master pun masa tahun 4 ni kan. well buku tu bukan nye senang nak dapat. nak pinjam dari library pun payah n nk potostat kat bawah kejap je pun dia x kasi. ingat aku nak sangat pakai buku tu. arab ni kalau x menyusahkan hidup org sehari mmg tak kan sah. cube la senang kan hidup orang. nanti kat akhirat allah senangkan urusan kau pulak. x nak ke mcm tu? geram pulak rasa duduk kat mesir ni. mmg banyak kene sabar.

lepas tu dia just nak tengok reference, bukan nak tengok pun isi aku betul ke tak semua. aku dah la ada kelas commed lepas tu, duk layan n tunggu turn lagi. pulak tu dia ada hari ahad n isnin je. lepas tu due date rabu ni. boleh pulak dia cakap hantar minggu depan. wat theeee -,-' this is just for the sake of 5 or 10 marks only doctor why u make this thing so complicated. next sem mmg x nak lagi ngn doktorah tu, seriously. dia ingat kita amik forensic and toxicology je ke tahun 4 ni? subjek lain mcm mana. how can i focus on other subject?

n now tadi tetibe je doktorah datang n cakap lusa ni ada test! whaattt! suppose to be that test in on 14/11!! ya allah kenapa la mcm ni. sumpah x de sistem langsung. sumpah mcm zaman apa tah dgn teknologi komputer nye mcm apa. bukan nak kutuk negeri nabi ni. tp cuba lah maju sikit. haih knapa lah aku merungut dengan takdir yg allah dah bagi kat aku ni. ya allahhhh

sometimes i feel that im not suit at all in this medical field. this is all for the sake of parents. i really dont want to make them dissappointed with me. but this is so hard. its so hard. seriously this is too much. its fun mmg sangat lah best n interesting, tapi lama2.. dengan banyak sgt benda nak kene urus n hafal.. n this is not my choice.. perasaan nak quit tu cepat je datang.

you know what i want to do now? travel alone seeing the creature of allah subhanallah taala in this world. i want to travel to the 7 wonders of the world n i will fullfill it no matter what insyaAllah dengan izin allah. aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn