p.e.r.a.s.a.a.n

assalamualaikum

tak tahu macam mana nak gambarkan perasaan sekarang bercampur baur.. maybe sbb hormone i think so. ohh maybe sebab nak dekat midterm exam. bukan stress tapi sbb banyak benda yang tak kene n need to be done as soon as possible. allahuu

aritu hantar doktorah banyak songeh research aku yg dh macam thesis ni. punya lah tebal mmg aku amik master pun masa tahun 4 ni kan. well buku tu bukan nye senang nak dapat. nak pinjam dari library pun payah n nk potostat kat bawah kejap je pun dia x kasi. ingat aku nak sangat pakai buku tu. arab ni kalau x menyusahkan hidup org sehari mmg tak kan sah. cube la senang kan hidup orang. nanti kat akhirat allah senangkan urusan kau pulak. x nak ke mcm tu? geram pulak rasa duduk kat mesir ni. mmg banyak kene sabar.

lepas tu dia just nak tengok reference, bukan nak tengok pun isi aku betul ke tak semua. aku dah la ada kelas commed lepas tu, duk layan n tunggu turn lagi. pulak tu dia ada hari ahad n isnin je. lepas tu due date rabu ni. boleh pulak dia cakap hantar minggu depan. wat theeee -,-' this is just for the sake of 5 or 10 marks only doctor why u make this thing so complicated. next sem mmg x nak lagi ngn doktorah tu, seriously. dia ingat kita amik forensic and toxicology je ke tahun 4 ni? subjek lain mcm mana. how can i focus on other subject?

n now tadi tetibe je doktorah datang n cakap lusa ni ada test! whaattt! suppose to be that test in on 14/11!! ya allah kenapa la mcm ni. sumpah x de sistem langsung. sumpah mcm zaman apa tah dgn teknologi komputer nye mcm apa. bukan nak kutuk negeri nabi ni. tp cuba lah maju sikit. haih knapa lah aku merungut dengan takdir yg allah dah bagi kat aku ni. ya allahhhh

sometimes i feel that im not suit at all in this medical field. this is all for the sake of parents. i really dont want to make them dissappointed with me. but this is so hard. its so hard. seriously this is too much. its fun mmg sangat lah best n interesting, tapi lama2.. dengan banyak sgt benda nak kene urus n hafal.. n this is not my choice.. perasaan nak quit tu cepat je datang.

you know what i want to do now? travel alone seeing the creature of allah subhanallah taala in this world. i want to travel to the 7 wonders of the world n i will fullfill it no matter what insyaAllah dengan izin allah. aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

be strong man

Assalamualaikum

yeahh setiap manusia tu allah uji pelbagai2 dan berbeza antara tiap seorang. Ada yang best ada yang x best. Biasalah manusia sndiri berbeza2 kemampuan nya kan. Allah uji kita sbb allah sayang kt kita. Jangan sesekali menyerah bila allah uji kita sebaliknya sabar dan syukur sbb kita kene sbb allah pandang kita n nak bagi kita pahala lebih. Allahuuu

tak kisah lah org nak cakap awk penagih dadah ke apa ke sekalipun  yang penting awk x buat benda tu dan awk x sentuh pun . Lantak pi org nak kata apa. Mulut org kita tak boleh tutup meskipun darah daging awk sndiri buat benda tu n sampaikan fitnah kt org lain. Bersabarlah wahai hati.

selagi kita tak buat jangan pernah nk mengalah n rasa marah. Asobru minal iman. Fasobru jamil. Sesungguhnya allah suka kan org yg sabar. I know im so far away from you. But believe me i never forget to pray for you and family. Dont forget to make du'as as it is the best weapon that Islam had.

Sekeras2 batu pun bila lama2 kene titis ngn air lelama akan melekuk jugak. Mcm tu jugak lah hati manusia. Bila lama2 kita berbaik ngn dorg lama2 akan cair n terima kita. cuma cepat or lambat je. Bersabarlah ye..

sometimes i think that how can i come into your family? Am i survive being there? Im getting older. N i need to think of this as the times will come jugak finally. InsyaAllah i will try my best. This is the media for me to spread the dakwah which is eratkan sillaturahim antara Islam. Memutuskan sesuatu perhubungan tu kan dosa.

respect you family. Tanpa dorg siapalah kita ni kt bumi. Kadang2 kita berjaya pun sbb doa dorg. Lagi2 doa seorang ibu. Hormatlah selagi ibu masih ada. Kalau ibu dah takde hilang lah 1 nikmat besar iaitu doa seorang ibu yang tiada hijab dan allah terus makbulkan.. be strong. Im here..

jari jemari rajin

assalamualaikum,

dah lama jugak x update blog ni. hehehe

oh ye now im so bz with class forensic and toxicology with some assignment that i need to submit on 30 dec ni! woah semoga Allah permudahkan la ye aminnn.

well, learning forensic really open my mind out. learning about org mati. serius rasa sgt insaf, change that occur after human dead. well tu yang ada case dah mati tapi tetibe terbangun or tangan dia tergerak sndiri. thats so not hantu guys, thats is due to rigor mortis which is there is some enzyme that move our body. it takes time to be finish and disintegrate. subhanallah
even if we aspirate sperm from dead man the sperm are still motile ! subhanallah

okay, im also learning about case of death daripada gantung diri, sampai lah bunuh pakai pistol. mmg acah acah polis la kan bila kene belajar bermacam jenis senapang n pistol. thats really make me so excited to attend class practical. rugi untuk org yg dtg kuliah for the seek of marks n lulus exam only. ini semua ilmu allah yg patut kita belajar. ilmu ALLAH itu luas. kita baru belajar setitik dakwat daripada lautan ALLAH.

the mid term exam around the corner, okay walaupun rasa agak x puas hati sbb university lain ikut system round jugak tapi dorg takda midterm n kitaorang ada. kau ghase apa? okay deal lah we take this in positive way. learn kerana ALLAH ye kawan kawan bukan sebab nak lulus exam. kap ba ra kap alip ta nun. gituuu

i've already got my ticket to malaysia. kawan2 sume seronok berjalan pegi negara barat tengok pemandangan while me celebrating my sister wedding n family. alhamdulillah. mmg nak jalan jugak tapi masa dengan family actually lagi berharga. duit boleh cari, masa ngn family nak cari mana?

n now tgh case banjir yg semakin teruk kat pantai timur. oh well, deep inside my heart, im so touch for them. seriously nak tolong tapi tak mampu selain daripada doa. thats all. power of dua tu kuat sebenarnya. sama lah mcm case dekat palestine, syria. x mampu untuk pergi sana bertarung nyawa tapi kita bole doa dari jauh. thats the best.